"On the way to Miri GH, aku nadai pikir agik semina nanya dlm ati... can my hubby make it or not??? Teka teki campur sedih....meda laki iya nadai bermaya .. deep in her heart (HE) knew her hubby would not make it, but she just do not want to accept the fact... is it my dream??" Each time aku pray, a small voice keep on telling me that my hubby will go before me... but she don't know when and don't understand why that small voice keep on appearing to her when she pray... ko randau HE enggau aku. .. aku pun enda nemu bakani ka nyaut, I don't know whether it's a bad or good angel?? I believe if it is a "good angel" would he take away our happiness?? Why would God want to give us pain, if he knew he could not give us His grace?? ko dlm ati ku din, but I just listen, I do not want to confuse her or add more pain to her; looking at her situation that very moment, I felt for her but I can tell she is devasted with the loss of her beloved hubby, as she referred him as her "bread of life", knowing how close they were for the last one month.
According to her close friend (D), who always go lunch together with her; or sometimes fetch her to work and send her home. D told us it was not like HE.. from last month till 19.8.2010, her pattern of life changed, she declines to go out for lunch because her hubby (W) cooks for her and send over the lunch pack to her and; she wants her hubby to send and fetch her to/fro work eventho she came to office not as early when she is with D, HE is the type who wants to be in the office early but somehow D found her behaviour unusual, they suddenly becomes so attached to one another ko randau D ngagai bala kami ke datai.. maybe because HE knew about the "small voice" ko aku meh! engka D enda nemu pasal nya.
Her last hour with her beloved late hubby (W), was last nite (19.8.2010), he came back around 10 p.m. after he had a drink with his friends, reached home, he took a bath then she told HE that he would cook for her, HE was quite upset because he came late, merajuk lah, then he told her.. you look so pretty when you are upset with him, so they had supper @ 12 midnite. After they had supper, he told HE, he's so tired and he wanted to sleep straight after supper, HE told him "don't sleep immediately" after you had eaten, but he just ignored her and doze off. Early this morning, HE woke him but he did not response, then shelook closer to him and found that his face and body was blue-black, mulut iya nyau bepupo, ngelie iya terkanchin; his shirt was wet and he urinated, the bedsheet was all wet... he must have been struggling for breath, so HE quickly called her mum to see, then her mum try to massage and pull his hands, he breath his last breath (mutus ke seput) ko mak iya, tang mak iya enggai madah ke HE.. while HE was panicking looking for someone to help her to send him to MGH. So he was driven by HE's brother-in-law... when he reached MGH he was pronuouced death, died of Hearth Attack but the doctor suspect the cause of heart attack is due to "stress"!!
Daughter Kim is the closest to her daddy.. she really cried upon the arrival of the body to the house around 5:30 p.m... then later, she asked me and wai NR... what happen to my daddy, why is he sleeping?? I told her that Jesus loves her daddy and took him to Heaven, can he come back home? ko tanya Kim; I told her No.. He must stay in heaven with Jesus.. then she looks puzzled?? bedau nemu reti pemati meh tudah ko randau kami duai wai NR.. sedih amai...so, I told her from now onwards you have to be your mummy's bestfren, be a good daughter, study hard and help mummy to take care of your little brothers.. she just nodded and smile. She's so sweet, she's a daddy's girl.It was a very sad sad moment especially when you look at their children, they are so young & innocent who still need a "daddy's" love; their eldest and only daughter age 9 years old, 2nd child 7 yrs old, 3rd child 4 yrs old and the youngest is 3 yrs old. HE and her late hubby both 35 yrs old... the late hubby would turn 35 yrs old next mth. HE colleagues from Curtin Uni (Student Affairs Dept.) came including their head of dept.. Dr Adeline.; she even went to see HE at MGH, very concern boss and caring colleagues.. there were all tears as they comfort HE upon her arrival with her husband casket... a saddest moment of a wife's life, no woman could hold the tears at that very moment, I cried too, no words could express when we loss our dear ones!!
The late William, to me was a very nice, quiet man.. always put a smile on his face. Very loving hubby and dad to his children. "good people always goes early".. they don't have to stay on earth too long..ko kami bekenang meda tudah agik biak, died so soon! Munyi ko HE madah enggau sebak di dada..."she loves Jesus so much that she is willing to let him go,it's not easy to carry the cross of suffering ko serbana tudah.. and life must goes on". Tu meh ngitih ke sempekat seduai ngagai Tuhan, till death do us part..What death means in 1 Corinth 15:29 "Now if there is no resurrection, what will those do who are baptized for the dead? If the dead are not raised at all, why are people baptized for them?"
Dearest Helen, our deepest sympathy and heartfelt condolence to you and your children and those who mourn his loss, May his soul rest in peace. Our prayers are with you and your children.. May the Good Lord Jesus gives you comfort n strength to help you to go thru' these moment of pain & mourning the loss of your beloved hubby/daddy; put your trust in Jesus. Amen... from iEg & Layang.
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Rest In Peace...
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